on this day, thirty-nine days ago…

I have been waiting for this day for a very long time. Last February Sean and I sat in his office, in our little apartment in Wisconsin and read the results of a pregnancy test - positive.   My due date is today - September 23, 2016 - and this day has and will always be a special day in my heart. It may seem so silly to some, to have such a strong feeling toward a date that a doctor guesses at, more or less, but the date represented a new chapter, a turning point in my life from [Read more...]

when you feel locked up

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I have spent much of my life seeking praise for my actions. Though I knew I was doing a good job, it wasn’t until those around me verbalized it that I truly felt successful. This external validation has been dangerous because what I was really asking for is the validation that I was, truly, good enough. I would venture to guess that in some way your story is similar to mine. Though the details may be different, through seeking validation we ask others to argue with the lies that we tell [Read more...]

a common thread

I feel so very deeply these days. Paris broke my heart. I don't have any direct connection to the city, as some do; yet the tears of those who have lost loved ones have reached across the ocean and seeped into my soul. I see the reaction our government has taken and the dialogue flowing through social media, and all I see is fear, anger, and hate. So many are talking about spreading love but my assumption is that I have surrounded myself with a small percentage of people who are similar to me - [Read more...]

when you feel you aren’t enough

Most of you know I have been going through my Yoga Teacher Training course, and we have started to delve more deeply into mantras. I had heard about mantras before, but the concept always somewhat escaped me. It seemed as though I would be chanting something that, honestly, would be going against some of my core beliefs. I kind associated them with something a cult would be doing, and honestly it felt a little uncomfortable. As I learned more about them, though, I realized that they were, in [Read more...]

there is a sacredness in tears

"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.They are messengers of overwhelming grief... and unspeakable love." - Washington Irving - I wear my heart on my sleeve. I always have. My emotions are very obvious, and what I'm thinking usually shows up on my face. It can be dangerous as I have had a friend or two call me out on what I might be thinking as someone walks by (sorry to say I have had one or two [Read more...]

at this very moment…

  I thought this was so funny!  And so true, isn't it? In all seriousness, though, I have lived my entire life in the future. This fact has just recently dawned on me, and I have gotten a sense of clarity so bright that it is almost a little scary. Do you ever feel as though life is just speeding by? Like you look at the calendar and think, "Wow, it's October 26th already! Where did October go?" And then, before you know it, it's the New Year, and you have a mountain of credit card [Read more...]

#aimtrue

So I guess I should start from the beginning. And don't worry, I will do my best to keep it short and sweet, but I believe it is important to know where you have been in order to understand where you are. I started my relationship with Yoga about 10 years ago. I remember my first yoga class like it was yesterday - and not because it was the most incredible class in the world, but because of how I felt when I was done. Core Power Yoga was the most common and well known of studios in the [Read more...]